Your Writing Matters: How a Book Saved My Life


This is not that cabin

Autumn always makes me thankful. Maybe it’s because of Thanksgiving. Maybe it’s because of a memory of a remote cabin in the middle exploding fall colors. Maybe it’s the  reminder that I have more to be thankful for than most. I’m thankful for books. Because one saved my life.

When people ask me why I began writing, I lie. I tell them that I had an idea that wouldn’t let me go. And that’s true, as far as it goes. But the reason it wouldn’t let me go is the real story. See, I write about my own demons. I think on some level, we all do, don’t we?

I’m not going to bore you with all the backstory, but suffice it to say that my decisions ended me at nineteen, with a guy I’d known a total of ten days before I said ‘I do’, living in a log cabin in the Back of Beyond, Michigan.  We had one car, which he took to work each day. I wasn’t allowed to work; a woman’s job was in the home. The mailbox was a mile walk away, and town was ten. We didn’t have a phone.

There were other cabins within a mile of ours, but they were summer homes; there were no neighbors in autumn. We had electricity, but no money for propane. No worries.  We cut wood to keep us warm for the coming winter. But no propane meant no gas for the stove, range, or washer and dryer. So I learned to cook everything in an electric Dutch oven. I washed our filthy blue jeans with a floor brush on the boards of the porch.

Don’t get me wrong, it was beautiful. The cabin was beside a river, and the trees were bursting with color. I fished, and picked wild huckleberries for pies. Fires at night were warm and romantic.

But then he started hitting me.

I thought it was my fault. After all, I knew almost nothing domestic. He even had to teach me to cook.  I made mistakes, I screwed up. I learned as fast as I could, trying to make him happy, and proud. It didn’t work. He still got mad. No, furious. And I’d end up with bruises. But he was so sorry afterward that I believed him, that it wouldn’t happen again. I believed it because he believed it.

But as time went on, and I got better at that life, he didn’t change. The home I grew up in was falling apart, and I didn’t want to admit I’d made a mistake, so I never told them. I had nothing to do all day but clean and think. Believe me; you could have eaten off any surface in that cabin. But my thoughts just cycled in an endless loop.

Most of the time, things were fine. I was even happy. The anger wasn’t always there. But the potential always was, hanging like static electricity in the air. I stayed alert, always. I lost weight.

The highlight of my week was going to town on the weekend to do laundry, because I could go to the library. I was always a reader, and now it sustained me – I could go away in my mind. They’d only allow me to check out seven books at a time, so I’d choose the heftiest tomes I could find, so I’d have lots to read during the week.


That’s how I came upon Ayn Rand. Atlas Shrugged gave me the answer that I had missed in all those hours of thinking. It never occurred to me that I was the answer.  It was a beginning.

People who know me now can’t picture me in this past. That’s because that naïve powerless girl wasn’t me. The more years I live, the more I uncover who ‘me’ is.

I never forgot the power that book opened in me.

That’s the real reason I started writing. If something in one of my stories gives one person a glimmer of an answer they seek, I’ll have paid forward what Ayn Rand gave me, all those years ago.


Your turn. What book has touched your life? Will you share it?



  1. ROSEMARY Ann FORSTROM on March 30, 2020 at 9:40 am

    Thank you for sharing this with us Laura. I am so glad that you found a way to move beyond being that girl/woman. Your books remind me that we can move on in life. I now have a good idea where parts of your stories come from.

    • Laura Drake on March 30, 2020 at 10:00 am

      Thanks for letting me know I’ve succeeded, Rosemary. Hugs.

  2. Nancy Frazee on March 30, 2020 at 12:10 pm

    Thank you for sharing.

  3. Bev on March 30, 2020 at 12:40 pm

    Wow, powerful. Thank you, Laura Drake.

  4. Stephanie on March 30, 2020 at 4:52 pm

    As a newlywed who grew up with in the girl power of the seventies, I had never really tried to understand how to understand much less live with the opposite sex.

    Then I read (sometimes out loud in bed at night!) “Women are from Venus, Men are from Mars”. It was like someone looking in our windows!

    We learned so much about why the other reacted in certain ways. Ways that we were to you g to put into words. So thankful! We’ll be married 30 years in June!

  5. Tracy on April 24, 2020 at 9:46 pm

    Laura, I’m sorry you had to live through that, and I’m glad you found your way out. I also want to assure you that no amount of reading “Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus,” to yourself or out loud, would have ever made staying in an abusive marriage okay. Good thing you found Ayn Rand instead! 😉

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